Feeling Sorry for Myself Day

On Wednesday I told a real estate agent that we wouldn't be putting an application in on a house we had looked at on the weekend. I had liked the house - but Cyp was worried about where it was and others counseled that it seemed pricey for the area. I'm not sure if I didn't get enough sleep on Wednesday night, but I woke up in a funk on Thursday and was upset about not having applied for the house. I started to freak out about finding a place and a car and started to wonder why I had agreed to have this huge disruption in my life. I had a pretty good house and a car. Why did I go and make my life this difficult! Not to mention, Christmas is coming (although Ellis refuses to believe it - especially when it is 35 degrees outside and the palm trees are swaying) and apparently, Christmas can stress me out here too. Can we not just opt out of Christmas? We managed to skip Halloween and Ellis didn't notice - bet he won't notice no Christmas either. Oh, and finally, Ellis kept saying he didn't like me, but he liked daddy.

I dropped Ellis off at school and came home to make cookies for our first official Christmas Party the next day. My cookies do not seem to work here. Perhaps it is the forced fan oven or the flour - not sure which, but my chocolate chip cookies are oddly like biscotti. I also filled out my drivers license application and then headed back to town with Rowan to get said license. As we disembarked the ferry and were walking up the ramp to the street, a woman gave me a flower with a "be nice to someone today" label. I was still in a state, so that almost made me cry (sappy but true).

I found the motor vehicle office and got a number. I had barely sat down when my number was called and about five minutes later, I had a five year driver's license for Queensland. I got to decide that I was able to drive manual. Not sure if I can drive at all! That was super easy. I really feel as if I got away with something.

I'd accomplished everything I needed to that day so was kinda at a loss - it was only about 1:30 (I thought getting a drivers license would take longer). So Rowan and I wandered down and hopped on a city cat. We headed out to UQ - I phoned Cyp on the way to find out what bus we should take back. Caught a bus back - it was only about 2:30. We were bored. I headed into the library and tried to do internet, but apparently, everyone else had the same idea (internet is so expensive here, I guess everyone heads to the library). I had asked at information how to use the internet and got a 30 minute explanation - at the end of the librarian's explanation (as he saw the glazed look in my eyes) he said "just go upstairs, you'll see it." I did see it - and the lineup, so I headed to the children's section. Rowan played for a bit and then I decided to go do more grocery shopping. We then went and got Ellis.

"What number is it?" he asked when we got there.

"it's almost 4:00." I replied.

"I wanted you to come back at 3:30!!!!"

Why didn't I just lie. Sigh.

On the walk home, I was texting with Cyp and he found us just before we got on the ferry.

Ellis was talking a mile a minute as he usually does these days after daycare (I think they must just sleep all day there) - "there's the park near our house" (we can see it from the other side of the river. "that building looks like stairs" (see the building above in the clouds).

Cyp found as as we neared the ferry. Now Ellis wanted him to go back to work. "go back to work daddy. I don't like you, I like mummy." I couldn't help but feel a little smug. He is good at playing us.